3, 21, 30, 40……

And just like that tomorrow’s Monday ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ I hate when that happens… or I should say I used to hate that… turns out my favorite day of the week is actually Sunday’s… it’s my time to take and reflect on the last week and move forward with the new… bet your wondering what the numbers in the title mean…..

“3”: that’s the number of children I have. My oldest is a girl and she’s 5 1/2 and just like her mother… which if you know me is not necessarily a good thing ๐Ÿ˜‰ we are both, stubborn, independent, always has to be right, and if you tell us “no” we will do it just to spite you! LOL

My middle son is 3 1/2 and definitely has the middle child syndrome… he can be the sweetest child and than BAM he turns into a little demon!

My youngest and currently my favorite because he can’t talk back is 18 months old. I swear he is like super brainiac smart!

To sum it up my husband and I thought it-would be a good idea to have all the kids 2 years apart… until we actually had all 3 in the house at one time! ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜ณ but hey, give us credit they are all alive still!!

“21”: I made a commitment to myself that I would work out for 21 days straight along with changing my eating plan… I am on day 6 and it’s a lot harder than one thinks… but again I have the personality that if you tell me I will give up or can’t do it… I will push myself to do it just to prove you wrong! I know I am going to struggle and want to give up but I am not a quitter… I will just complain the whole time!

“30”: this how many days it took me to binge watch 7 seasons of Game of Thrones… I finished today and I am still in shock… first off can we just take a moment and gaze upon how stinking hot Jon Snow is?! I mean the hair, the beard, the looks and he’s a good man!!! Seriously… if you haven’t watched yet… do it! Such a good show….

And now for the number 40 and probably the most important number…..

“40”: this is how long Lent lasts for, this is the time I take most and reflect about my path as a Christian, I think about how Jesus made the biggest sacrifice to us all and how little I fail in comparison. During this Lenten season I am choosing not to give up anything (mostly because I am WELS Lutheran) and we don’t give up anything… but I am going to commit, I am going to commit to being a better Christian and sharing my love of God with others, and taking time each day to read passages from the Bible.

I want to end with sharing my favorite verse out of the Bible.. just so happens I also have this tattooed on my shoulder as a constant reminder. Joshua 1:9

“Be Strong and courageous, do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

So, until next time… Refresh…. Reload… Repeat โค๏ธ

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Adoption

Whoa! It’s Thursday evening!!! Almost the weekend!!! So, tonight I wanted to blog about a topic near and dear to my heart โค๏ธ adoption…..

Many may or may not know this but I was adopted from South Korea ๐Ÿ‡ฐ๐Ÿ‡ท at the age of 4 months old, my birth mother was 16 years old and put me up for adoption. I was staying with a foster family until my parents adopted me.

Now, you have to understand I was adopted into a all white family and I don’t mean that to sound offensive by any means. Both my parents are white, my aunt and uncle cousins are all white… I have one older brother who was also adopted from South Korea at the age of 8 months, we are not biological however.

Growing up I think I knew I was always adopted, I obviously look nothing like my parents although my mom likes to tell people I get all my good looks from her… and you wouldn’t believe how many people look at us like she’s serious! ๐Ÿ™„ I also went to a all white high school… including my brother there may have been 4 total kids who were non-white.. it was actually a blessing to go to such a small high school because we never ran into any problems being different looking. The community I grew up in was also very much so a white community, again I am thankful for growing up in such a small town.

Now, I get asked a lot of questions about being adopted:

Would you ever want to meet your birth mom?

Easy answer: NO! This may shock some people but when you are adopted at 4 months old your adoptive parents are the only people that you know as parents.

Would you ever want to visit South Korea:

Another easy answer: NO! The US is the only place I know for growing up. Now granted I am not US born, I can never run for president, and when I came into this country I had to get citizenship and nationalization papers.

My all time favorite question about being adopted and this person was SERIOUS….. are you all ready for this? I mean I can’t even make this up….

Wait, did you come by boat? ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿค”

Yes…. my birth mother thought I was Moses stuck me in a basket… floated me across the oceans… through the Menominee River and that’s how I ended up in Wallace, Mi…. ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ (this was my actual answer to this person after I got pass the shock I was even asked this)

The real answer is I was escorted by a US Army Sergeant and flown into Chicago airport, where my parents and my brother were waiting for me.

I can’t tell you how thankful I am that I was brought into such a warm and loving family, not only by my parents but my cousins and Aunt and uncle, and grandparents. I never once was treated like I wasn’t blood to them. Let me tell you it does NOT take blood to make them your family. I thank GOD each day for what I have and am so grateful to my parents for choosing me.

My mom had a picture drawn up and I have had it in my bedroom since 4 months old:

Amy Lynn,

Not heart of my heart

Nor bone of my bone

Not forgotten for a single minute

You didn’t grow under my heart

But in it.

Love,

Mom

What a powerful message! I believe 100% in adoption, without it who knows where I would be in life. Are there some downfalls… yes, I have no medical history which means my children only have half a medical history but there could be worse things in life. I am just grateful I am where I am at today and I couldn’t of asked for a better family!

Until next time! Take time to Refresh….Reload…. Repeat โค๏ธ

Fitness/working out: is it worth it?!

Greetings! Well we all survived Monday! Well some of us survived anyways! So, as part of my plan for 2018 I wanted to get healthy, loose weight and stop eating shit for food! You have to understand I am a mom of 3 kids! So my body has taken a bit of a beating (in a good way) ๐Ÿ˜Š but I will admit I am not happy with how much I have gained, I mean I am by no means obese nor do I want to fit in a bikini…. but I would like to put my jeans on without laying on the bed… holding my breath and hoping they zip! I mean ladies we have all been there before right?! So, I recently reconnected with a friend of mine from a couple years ago and she is a great person! She’s willing to help me on my weight loss journey and supporting me on becoming a refreshed me! So ok… she says “hey, let’s try a cycle class at the Y” ok I am game! Here I am thinking oh it’s just gonna be 30 minutes on a bike no big deal right?! WRONG!!! It was a sprint class!!! So me putting on a brave face I am like “I can totally do this” well let me tell you! I literally saw the light, saw Jesus face and he was saying “child come home” oh, I was so ready until my other friend Megan says on a 30 second rest period ” Amy, thanks for bringing me with” let me tell you I was so proud of surviving that class and it was just the jumpstart I needed! I have been working out every night since than… well ok not every night I took the weekend off and I took tonight off… but I am jumpstarting back into it tomorrow night. Is it easy?! Hell no! Is it easy for me to change my diet?! Even bigger hell no! Will I do it?! Absolutely! Why will I do it?! Because I want to have more energy, sleep better, not have to hold my breath to get my jeans to zip up, and overall I want to feel good in my own skin! Am I going to bitch and complain the whole time?! YES!! But, I won’t be giving up and I hope you all join me with my journey to a refreshed me! I am sure I will have stories to share with you! So, until next time take time to Refresh… Reload… Repeat โค๏ธ

Where my story begins

Morning! So 2018 came with some big changes for me, I recently turned 30! Let me tell you something 30 FREAKED ME OUT! I was seriously having mini panic attacks over the thought that I was going to be 30?! I was freaking out because I thought I haven’t accomplished enough, I haven’t done enough, I should be farther ahead in my career I should be owing my own house….. all these thoughts were running through my head… and than a good friend of mine, well she’s actually my person stopped me one morning when were were FaceTiming and in her gentle way said “will you shut up” now you have to understand she meant it in the sweetest way, and than she went on and said “you are a mother to 3 children, you are a full time working mom, a wife and number one you are a strong Christian women” that is exactly what I need to hear! Just like that my anxiety, my mini panic attacks the stress it all stopped when I thought about turning 30. She’s my person and she knows exactly what I need to hear at exactly the right time. I won’t mention her name but she’s the Grey to my Yang ๐Ÿ˜Š so… your asking what does all this have to do with me starting a blog?! Well, I am looking at Turing 30 as a chance for me to Refresh… Reload… Repeat (see what I did there) I am choosing to take this year to better myself, work on a healthier me, work on becoming the best mother and wife I can be and to grow my strength with God. I hope you all join me in this adventure, laugh with me, cry with me, scream with me, and just join me…. if this even reaches just one women out there I have done my job. I will be blogging about every day life, my fitness journey, the day in the life of a full time working mom, and me growing in my faith. One thing you have to realize is I am not a writer so punctuation is going to be far from perfect (no judgment) and this is a totally new experience for me as I don’t usually let people in my personal life… but yesterday a co-worker (looking forward to growing my friendship with her) of mine said do it so that’s just what I am doing! Until next time! Take time to Refresh…Reload…Repeat โค๏ธ